drunken*lullabies

the end

2004-10-27T22:33:51Z

sadly..but happily..

i am coming to an end with livejournal

because it fucking sucks <3
THIS IS MY LAST ENTRY NUCKAS!! SAY PEACCE!!!!

HOMECOMING!!

2004-10-25T02:55:29Z

ahh homecoming was frikking FUN as hell haha thanks guys for pushing me to go..i went to natalies then we got ready..i found out im deathly allergic to her kat..i got hives,and my eyes swelled up and i couldnt breathe..haha then at hc i got my freak on with carlos adn we slowww danced it was fun haha i had to give ashley my shoes so she could be taller LMAO so yea someone really pissed me off haha everybody knows WHO butwhatever..it was fun..haha i looked liek shit everybody else looked so prettyi hated my life. haha then i went back to natalies with heather,olivia,jenny,holli,jill,caitlin,and jenna..we talked and were really stupid until like 2:50 which is when i left to go with my lover..but i came back at like 3:30 and i felt bad cuz i woke natalie up :( im sorry boo..it was so fun though haha we were talking abotu the grudge and farting every like 5 mins haha i love my fwiendssss

drunknlullabys @ 2004-10-18T16:29:00

2004-10-18T23:29:50Z

SlowAnStoney [4:28 PM]: i hear no doubt
SlowAnStoney [4:28 PM]: and im like
SlowAnStoney [4:28 PM]: damn this is so thea

hm

DAMB..i am so no doubt. haha

drunknlullabys @ 2004-10-14T00:49:00

2004-10-14T07:52:20Z

i spent my day with my boo(damian) haha..jr and moses. here are pictures. haha

drunknlullabys @ 2004-10-08T23:56:00

2004-10-09T06:58:47Z

i had a "date" with joe today..we went to the state fair..it was fun..but hot..and he "WON" me a framed picture of GOD!! aka tupac..haha i love you joseaphe!! haha ..last few days have been boring..i think..haha who care.s.i hate updating this thing because NOBODY FRIGGIN COMMENTS!! SHIT..gah. anyways i need to hang out with more friends...this break is going by kinda fast.haha..

whos gonna be my homecoming date

since me and carlos arent realy a..
"PAIR" anymore

thea

drunknlullabys @ 2004-10-07T23:28:00

2004-10-08T06:28:14Z

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	one of a kind

Quiz created with MemeGen!

drunknlullabys @ 2004-10-03T19:55:00

2004-10-04T02:55:54Z

meet my bunny...

smalls!! :-D i love her!

drunknlullabys @ 2004-10-02T23:41:00

2004-10-03T06:44:21Z

so far this weekend has been perdy cool..last night i went to that it thing with luis and his friend jesse..it was pretty lame..but atleast i got to hang out with luis..he probably thinks im the biggest bitch because i wouldnt go on any rides and i was barley talking..but i just didnt feel good and i felt sad for no reason so..yeah. haha it was very nice though..then tonight i went to a party in glendale with my mom for her friends daughters 17th bdqay..i love her though happy bday elena!! :-D i met her friend josh.hes hella cute and he complemeted my tatoos..thats ALWAYS a great icebreaker i have learned..so i asked him for my number and i was on my merry way...but they invited me to a party and he said hed drive me home later if it was ok with my mom..butof course it wasnt..so i had to come home. my dad said carlos called..so i called him and he invitedme to mikes party! happy bday mike!! but i was tired without a ride so i didnt go..and then i talked to NICK!! and i guess hes gonna come get me andw ere gonna go kick it with kris..:( haha..peace bitches..CALL ME IF YOU WANNA HAN GOUT!!

or schedule an appointment here.

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-29T18:25:00

2004-09-30T01:26:09Z

if i was marilyn monroe..id change my name to mulan monroe.
\

and note to carlos..i still have ur shirt :D

me laffff you long times.

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-22T19:55:00

2004-09-23T03:02:02Z

wow..today was prety fun! haha i got the great kissi deserve from joe before school..and carlos is always dandy with that whole mwah thing..then i hung out with spencer,ryan, and darell in 1st perdiod talking like a hick it was hella funny but darell is kinda weird. haha..then i went to 5th perdiod..french is boring..then i went to lunch..AND I HAD THE BEST TIME EVER! screw girls..i totally missed my boys and today just made my day..i met the nicest guy EVER..his name is luis!! and i was kickin it with james and phillip,emilio,nick,and jeremy and he came up and started talking to them and watched me as i went crazy like a redneck and started fighting jeremy haha and we started talking..hes like "where are you fgrom" i was like uhh china..and hes like wow relly? i was like no..im from here you stupid mexi..i mean kid haha jk..i didnt say that i wish i did. but iw as liek nooo im from here..and u? and hes liek im from california..i was like which part? and he goes.CHINO!! i was like OMG I HAVE LIKE 40 FRIENDS THERE!! and we started talking and i made him laph really hard it was hella funny..haha then i couldnt find my school pix and i was like WHY DO PEOPLE KEEP STEALING THEM!! and hes liek cuz your so hot!!" i was like omg i love you ahahhaha and phillip almost pissed himself laphing at the "ying yang" joke and my family reunion. hahaha..so yeah..i was walking hiom to class..and he goes.."im sorry i didnt get your name and smiled at me..and i was like oh its thea..and of course..he hears it as fucking TIA..and im liek BITCH read the id..and we started laphing..and he was like yeah we should hang out sometime! or some shit like that. so whatevr.. ahha :-D this could be the start of something great. and i think james is relaly cute he blew me a kiss after asking me alot of questions about myself at lunch..arent i such a pimpster...

haha i wisshhhhhh

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-20T16:27:00

2004-09-20T23:30:23Z

hey gurl!

ahaha im such a dork but i love ya all long time
-Carlos-
otay whatever this kid is stupid.this is me updating. bye bye

CARLOS IS AT MY HOUSE WE MADE SWEET SWEET SWEET...LO...

ong eggrolls and chow mein..cuz were chinks i showed him my baby pictures...

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-18T23:41:00

2004-09-19T06:42:05Z

i miss my pink hair and gwenabee ways

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-17T19:24:00

2004-09-18T02:28:27Z

ugh..im trying to fix my new layout..anybody that can help me please do and i will love you for ages. anyways yeah..its friday night and im not doing anything. my asian mother doesnt even wanna hang out with me. haha anyways..yeah..i feel fat..its cuz im on my rag..blah..why cant i be a boy..instead of a stupid chubby chink...lol me and carlos have been hanging out alot lately. im gwowing to love the boy even more than i did before. me love you long time. haha it was hella funny.he came over and my bra was hanging on my dresser as a "decoration" because its black with pink ribbons and its super pretty haha..and i came in after about 15 mins and i took it down he was liek "ahhh too late i already sniffed it when you left" haha that made me laph long time. haha..anyways..yeah i had to bring him the little jack thingy for his flat..you owe me big time..haha and the guy that helped us was cute.and the other dumbass just wanted to show off his car and my dad goes'DAMMMB SON WHEREDHU GET THAT GREEEAAAL!?! IT LOOKSL IKE A BENNTTLY"!! and carlos was like yeah right you know he just wanted to show it off..haha its so true..and ok..the 2 young buff PROFESSIONALS couldnt gethte lug nuts off..what makes my 54 year old weak ass dad think he can? he goes..nah back up back up..lemee show you how an O G playa does it..haha and everybody looked at me i was so embarraassed haha..but yeah thats my story. tell me you love me long time.

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-15T17:52:00

2004-09-16T00:52:45Z

dont think im a slut..im not. :)

me love you carlos

haha carlos left like an hour ago..god almighty do i love that boy :)

me love you long time :)

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-13T15:18:00

2004-09-13T22:21:08Z

hallo pahtee peepoooleee! hehe today was a prety alright day i guess ..really boring though..herm..i woke up around 6:15..got ready..left at about 6:50..went to school..1st period..boring..second period..even MORE boring..4th period..kinda funny..haha..5th period..its french..enough said. 6th period..boring..i hate tests..and 3rd period i felt like suicide.. :-D I ATE LUNCH WITH MY LOVER CHELSEA TODAYi bet everybody thinks im the biggest dyke because ppl always see me and her kiss its funny and yet i have carlos on my OTHER hand that i love to smoooch too...haha..so that was me day! bai bai!!

NATALIE I WANNA SEE THOSE PIX!! haha

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-11T20:44:00

2004-09-12T03:46:21Z

carlos is my irkle..

:D
hahaha

*slaps him on the shoulder and turns it bright red*

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-11T09:44:00

2004-09-11T16:56:01Z

i am at el caseys right ! i stayed here last night and thanks to natalie i have beauttiful hair..or at least id liek to think so :) its black with 2 fat afat FAT silver and white chunks on the sides and theres litle flecks of silver in my bangs..my mom will kill me she said only black bu when i part it on the other side you cant tell theres white in it but whaterrrverr haha YEAH..so danae,natalie,casey(obviously), carlos, and olivia came!! carlos and olivia left carlos left to hang out withhis hunnie! I MET HIM!! haha i probably scared him buttt yeahh boi okay..natalie is still asleep..casey and danae are watching tv..and fuck its early.hah alst night i was like you guys i have to fart REAAAL BAD so if you feel a gust of wind coming it just mihgt onot be that florida hurricane..haha then natealie was like ..I HAVE TO FART i was like I DO TOO so we were all wrapped up in the blanket and natalie rips and i wen "peep!" haha their like how come asians have to have miniature everything.. haha caseyess little italiano dog wont stop following me its cute haha i feel looooved and i love caseys mom!! :D i should be home in a little so yeah coment if you would like to hang out!!

♥
"hurricane frances"

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-09T17:53:00

2004-09-10T00:53:42Z

tell me what you honestly think of me

and ill tell you.

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-06T18:45:00

2004-09-07T01:46:02Z

this weekend..was fantabulous..i got some serious booty and he is sooo foine. :-D hahaha

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-05T01:25:00

2004-09-05T08:26:59Z

so i suppose everything with ricky was a missunderstanding..and i assumed thing and blew them up way more times then they needed to be..i todl him i had mono from kissing sergio and he wants nothing to do with me because i ::cheated:: on him but ummm shal we remember what he did to me 3 fucking times? and what did i do? take it? yeah hes a little bitch consideing i told him id do anything just to be a part of him and he "doesnt want me anmore because he cant see himself with me when i cheat"..then what the hell does that make me see about when i foudn out he fucked? yeah..okay i see how it is..right now i just want a fucking boyfriend..but nobody can ever replace him as much as i hate and love him right now..

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-02T17:42:00

2004-09-03T00:48:17Z

what makes me sick is i cant even explain how much i hate him..everything i did for him..everything i said to him..everything i felt for him is all completely gone..over 3 other girls..am i that easy toreplace? and ami that gullible to finally listen to a guy..and when i do i get hurt more than ever..that was my whole future..and im scared..i dont know what to do anymore and whats sad is that im only 15 and i had it all planned with a guy that treated me like shit..i hope he fucking rotts in hell after all he did to me..and il kick his ass AND HERS if its the FUCKING LAST THING I DO
to fucking ALL of you that actually love me and mean it i really wana thank you..although you are all girls because boys are incabable of truly loving they only think with their dicks..but to my homies..that HONESTLY care about me thank you..your what keeps me alive and i couldnt wakeup everyday without knowing you guys can make it better

and to the fucking rest of you that cause me pain i wanna say fuck you.and ill see you in hell because making my life miserable because you arent content with yours does absoloutly nothing..dont thinki let you get to me because your all worthless pieces of shit that will go nowhere..especially that fucking bum ricky who will end up with 5 kids from 5 different girls..pay child support, live in a trailer making minimun wage will regret everything he did to hurt me..because he could have had it all if he would have just been honest and loyal but thats too much to ask..

so ricky..everything you asked for..fuck you..no jetski for you, no huge house for you, no love for you, no money, and no NOTHING..i fucking hate you..you make me miserable and youshouldnt expect too much out of life because your going nowhere..the only decent relationship you had was with a girl you hurt and cheated on..then think about tha bad relationships..which is what your future consists of..so fuck you cuz i dont need your trick ass

drunknlullabys @ 2004-09-01T19:09:00

2004-09-02T02:18:57Z

so yeha..alot of crap has been going on lately..me and ricky broke up for good..i think..brittany told me hes always with this girl veronica so whatever if he wants to fuck again he can be my fucking guest...hes such a fucking slut its sickening..but off that bitch..

im so sick of his shit its funny..love my ass..

anyways im really starting to like sergio for some reasonl..he just makes me happy! :-D me wove u huggy bear
and me and carlos have bveen getting closer i love him haha..were going to homecoming cuz hes a hottay!!

haha i was soo mad this morning my sink flodded the whole hallway and bathroom and soaked all my expensive makeup my mom managed to throw away..sofuck it..haha phillip goes ok girl..first of all YOU DONT NEED THAT HOE!! and second of all ur already pretty dont wear that shit :-D haha he hella made me laph but i almost cried in front of jeremy and emilio i didnt want the mt ot hink i was like a
pussy or anything so yeah..

welll i hope i find somebody special who wont break my heart..i think i kinda already am starting to figure out who he is though

an d ill give you a hint

HES MY HUGGY BEAR!!!

drunknlullabys @ 2004-08-28T13:13:00

2004-08-28T20:13:12Z

me wove u carlita

poem

2004-08-28T08:40:12Z

yeah yeah i know its emo but ppl just CANT stop pissing me off!! so if you steal it then its just ur loss kids

where do you go from here my friend
i said id be here till the bitter end
but the end is here and its bitter so
i guess that means that i can go
i can walk away from your empty face
and run my fingertips over the place
your lips they moved as i heard your lies
the lies that escaped right through your eyes
the life you breathe within that nose
the lie you live in the body that grows
it grows with your heart, your mind, your soul,
the body that i was there to console
when you were at your worst and there was nothing there
who was the one to say they care
i was the one to take you in
after each loss you just always win
after each win you just cant stop losing
you watch yourself,your soul is bruising
your heart is bleeding,your life is gone
i hope you know im right your wrong
its not my fault im in love with you
i cant help it that everything you do
i always come back and i always get hurt
i shower you in gold you treat me like dirt
but pain is misery and misery is pain
you are the car in the other lane
your headlights are shining and i am the deer
your empty soul knows the end is near
you swirve and miss and something is hit
i am the deer
and this is it.

it kinda in a way relates to 1 boy i like..and 1 boy i somewhat love..this is all stuff from the past im pretty sure im over now but i keep thinking about it still..the ending is confusing..he tries to kill himself..(to get me to stay with him..haha ppl u know the story if u know me) and i stay..but instead he ends up killing me..because im so miserable...

FTW

2004-08-28T03:32:39Z

im feeling..i dont even know! i hate emos they fucking SUCK ass but shit..im like SOO totally becoming one..like umigawd..it sucks..im really confused so that i dont know what im feeling at all..i have like zewo friends this year it really really rips ass i miss my ricky me wove u baby :-D ahh i cant wait till i get to spend my xmas with him its gonna rawk..

CARLOS SO MUCH FOR CALLING ME TONIGHT im mad at you now..

but anyways haha sergio went to get his PERMIT because he THINKS i stole his wallet even though it was a WHOLE $2..but ill pay you back i promise ;D haha me wove u kiddo

ive been thinkin about hella funny shit thats been happening and it just makes me crack up in the midle of class like nothing..haha its so easy to make me laph im such a dumbass :-DHERE THEY ARE!
1.when aimee came up to carlos and was like..what does ur shirt say? from autumn ashes? wtf..wheres the to? its autumn TO ashes..omg thats so mexican LMAO haha
2.when jeremy was like THEA i was lieK WHAT .. and he bends over and RIPS SERIOUS ASS IN MY FACE lmao that kid needs some beano i fucking swear
3.when me and trisha saw that black girl with the stupidest look on her face we both hella started laphing
4. when i threw my binder at that black kid that keeps trying to pick me up LMAO
5. when i socked marcel cuz i thought he was ronald
6.when i first got my leopard shoes and i put them on 2nd period and i didnt know how they would feel and when i stood up i fell down and everybody turned around LMAO
7.when ricky was liek "thea..open your mouth and close your eyes.." and i was totally expecting some action..and instead he jacked my pack of liquid ice and poured them all down my throat.and he was biting my neck and i whispered..fuck..that hurt..in a babys voice lmao..and when my mom came in and he was ontop of me and i threw his ass of lmao!!
8.when me and emilio were in guitar and i was falling asleep.and i was liek "HE KEEPS TALKING BUT ALL I HEAR IS WAA WAA WAAAAAA" hahaha
9.the look on corbins face when he realized that the bathroompass had magically dissappeared..

SO MUCH FUNNY STUFF

but why ami not happy
I DONT THINK I CAN BE HAPPY UNTIL IM WITH RICKY

by the way ricky if you ever read this im sorry i kept telling you to stop calling..i was just frustraded with shit and to be honest you DONT HELP haha jk..but still you know me wove u and me always will!!

ricky is mah best fwiend..thats awesome befcause hes my boyfriend. me wove you hoochie mamma